moving on
So I talked to my mother on the phone last night for two hours, she told me that me contracting the disease is over with. i cant do anything about my past but i can get a handle on my future. And it’s not the end of the world. The doctor that is treating me on campus is a specialist in hpv. he has written papers and done tons of research on it the last 20 years. he told me that most of the stuff you read on the internet isnt true, that once the warts are gone, half the time the virus clears itself out of your system. and if not, i just have to go in and get one or two taken care of when they come from time to time. Its not going to ruin my life because I am not going to let it. I am going to get married. I am going to have babies. I am going to have a normal life. I think there is a reason i got this disease, I think God was trying to get the point across to me I have to clean up my act and stop being crazy with my life. I could have gotten something much worse, like hiv, or something that would make me sterile. but i didnt. i got something treatable that isnt painful. My mom told me “its just like regular warts…just in a squeamish area”. My younger sisters have to get treated every few years for body warts. This isnt that much different. I just need to live my life and not hibernate away because that would be letting it get the best of me. And the rest of you think about that too. Its not the end of the world, feel blessed that you had unprotected sex and only ended up with a minor viral disease and not something much worse.
It’s funny – you sound just like me. I’m 22 and I found out in late October, and after great support from my parents, boyfriend and friends, it has made this whole experience so much easier to deal with. I spent the first couple of days crying about it, wondering what I was supposed to do – how was I supposed to live with this crap? But the thing is, and it sounds like you’re starting to realize the same thing I am, that this is so not a big deal. It is a huge pain in the ass granted, but it just calls for readjusting your life a bit, and having to deal with some really annoying things. But on the plus side – we know we have an increased risk of cervical cancer, and we know to never skip our exams and to take better care of ourselves and keep our immune system up. You made a comment about your doctor on campus, I also found out from the health center on my campus, I’m upset I couldn’t stay with them, but they don’t cover the follow up treatment I need. You’re really lucky to have a doc on campus that knows so much about this, when most doctor’s seem to be painfully unaware. Anyway I just thought you might like to know that there is someone with an extremely similar situation as you, who also found out and is going through all the same things. Keep your head up!
By the way - for anyone who’s had a colposcopy – a friend of mine said it was terribly painful – would anyone mind sharing with me what to expect, I’d like to know before I go in – thanks